So I have a very big job interview today. I have not slept all week, because I have been going over things in my mind…. I am completely restless. I am so anxious because I want this job very very much. It would mean more money (yay) and a short commute (3 blocks). It is also perfect for me. Completely perfect.
I have been slightly stressing about it and it shows! This morning I woke up with a pimple (Brody calls them nipples) on the end of my nose! I’m sure I was sent this pimple in case the power goes out and I need to guide people out of the facility. Cindy says the people I’m interviewing with aren’t going to care about the pimple… but it’s right there…. on the very tip of my nose. And it’s bright red.
I spent extra time getting ready this morning. I even put hairspray on my hair!! All for naught. I arrived to work, got out of the car and was greeted with gale force winds. By the time I got into the building, my hair do looked more like a hair don’t. I did bring hairspray and a brush with me – so I’m hoping to make myself slightly presentable to my interviewers.
I’m not really worried… I’m just anxious I think. I would love to have this job, in fact it is a job that I have long coveted. It’s close to home (i could go home for lunch!) and I would be busy. All day every day. Everyone knows I love to be busy.
Let’s talk about busy. I decided that I didn’t have enough on my plate so I started doing the family tree for my boys. I’m not going to get crazy… Just great-grandparents for right now. My side is easy… the information is still available because I have living grandparents. Michael’s side might be tough. We’ll see what happens.
I’m going through a little writer’s block… forgive me. I need sleep.
I have unfinished projects all over the house. Tons of things ranging from sewing projects to painting the kitchen. I used to be obsessed with finishing the projects or encouraging Michael to finish his projects. I would start new projects before I had finished the old projects. I let these unfinished projects stop me from living my life, from doing activities outside of the house, from enjoying my family.
I used to think I had a problem with completing things. I thought that something was wrong with me. Until I started reading some blogs. It appears that I am not the only person afflicted with “Unfinished project syndrome.”(please say that in your best monster truck commercial announcer voice – unfinished project syndrome! syndrome!! syndrome!!!) I especially love craft blogs, I love seeing what other people are working on and creating! Oh the creativity! It’s mind-blowing to see what people can do with a bottle cap, a twist tie, paper and some glue.
Prior to the internet, these crafty people would join craft guilds or groups that interested them and share their ideas that way. Maybe a book was created by several people and published in very small numbers. And maybe, just maybe – it would see a few thousand copies. With the internet came worldwide exposure… people are really advancing their craft activities and crafting business. We are still joining crafty type groups (don’t get me wrong – we crafty people NEED each other), we are still meeting with others face to face. However, if I want to buy an apron pattern… I can search online and purchase the pattern without ever leaving my home! It’s awesome! I can also search how to do a particular knit stitch or get help knitting socks (in the middle of the night in my pjammies).
These days, the unfinished projects are just that… unfinished. I don’t let them stress me out anymore, I have also looked at the project and asked myself “Am I really going to finish it?” If the answer is no, then pieces are salvaged, yarn is frogged, or the entire piece is thrown out. The clutter in my house and my sanity are much more important than saving projects that I might complete later on.
Speaking of my sanity… I am very slowly regaining my old self. The old self that I love so much. The girl who is funny, who enjoys people, who is smiling and making jokes. I’m sure tons of you remember who that girl is! I now have more direction in my life, I have set goals for myself, and I am enjoying this road that I am on. YIPPEE!!
I’m failing miserably at Blog365. sigh… Sometimes, I have writer’s block. Sometimes, I am too tired. Sometimes, I am busy with the boys. It was so much pressure!
I will try to keep up with posting everyday. I have not done that great of a job with it – but I am trying. Bah!
Never before has time flown so quickly. Not even during “Back to the Future.” Before I knew what hit me, it was Monday morning and I was kicking myself for all the crap I didn’t have time to do.
It didn’t help that I spent almost all day yesterday doing stupid dumb homework. I know it will be worth it, but sacrificing right now is killing me. Deep down, I knew that going back to school would be difficult. It has stressed me out, it affects my children and my relationship with Michael. It affects how clean my house is. Pretty much everything.
I have two killer classes right now; a core business class and an elective ethics class. The elective class is really killing me! This is a class that I chose to take and I should not be forced to write 1000 word papers every single week! It’s not right. whine whine whine
We also took our nephew for the weekend while his parents are at the hospital with his baby sister. She had heart surgery and everything is going great. She’s doing really well and should be coming home soon. We spent Saturday night at the hippies house eating these really delicious, but very fattening chicken wings. The boys had a great time and so did Michael and I.
I can’t believe it’s monday already. I’m going to try to stop whining for today. Wish me luck!
My wish was granted this weekend. Our old dishwasher broke down and we were FORCED to buy a new one. On one hand, I am soooo happy for the new dishwasher. On the other hand… how sad is it that I don’t have a life at all and the highlight of my day is buying a new dishwasher. sigh
I admit, the breakdown couldn’t have happened at a worse time. Michael and I are trying to get our finances in order. We’ve had a few years of unwavering spending and having to shell out a couple hundred bucks on an appliance was not in the cards. However, we managed to score quite the deal! It just so happened that we wanted a particular dishwasher, it was on sale, and was the last one in stock. We saved over $200 on an amazing dishwasher.
A dishwasher that holds more dishes than the old one. A dishwasher that is so quiet we can’t even tell if it’s on. Of course, I had to call my mom about this. From this point on we will call her “The Woman with the loudest dishwasher on earth. It might even be adding to my father’s hearing loss” or “twwtldoeimebatmfhl” for short. So I called twwtldoeimebatmfhl with absolute giddiness when we first started the dishwasher. I pressed the phone up against the machine and asked if she could hear it. Of course, she couldn’t. Not even a high-powered microphone could pick up the sounds (or NO sounds) coming from the dishwasher.
Of course, twwtldoeimebatmfhl was completely jealous. Of course I called her because I’ve been at her house when her dishwasher was running and we had to shout to hear ourselves talk. 😀 Besides, twwtldoeimebatmfhl is such a smartie-pants and is always full of great and awesome advice. I needed something! I will always stand in her shadow, gratefully of course, because she’s got amazing advice. But for right now, for this very moment, I have the quietest dishwasher on the face of the planet.
We are coming close to the time of the year when most Canadians start their hibernation. You will see less people out at night, more people wrapped in blankets by a fire. You will also notice a slight weight gain of about 5 – 7 lbs. Children will sleep longer and snack more during the day. Mommy’s and Daddy’s everywhere are tucking their little ones in early and heading off to bed by 9:00 pm. It’s great.
I had not really noticed this pattern while I was in Canada, but I notice it now that I’m away. It’s something you really have to think about, meaning it’s not obvious. It was obvious to me that energy levels usually died down around January / February – but everyone was doing it.
I realized last night that I am in hibernation mode. I come home from work and head straight to my bedroom. Our bedroom has become quite cozy in the past few months. Against all advice we added a TV. I could not be more happy about this decision! I no longer have to watch The Speed network, the hunting network, the men’s channel or cartoons. It’s awesome! I can watch Martha Stewart, or cooking, or home decorating – all while dressed in my pjammies and wrapped in my cozy blankets.
I had big plans for this month. I was going to organize the house, get rid of piles and piles of paper, finish all the laundry completely (and I mean completely), organize the toys in the boys room, clean the house from top to bottom… want to guess at what I’ve done so far? Ya, I didn’t think so.
I have great intentions! I have tons of energy during the day (while I’m at work)! I have the tools needed to complete these tasks. I just can’t seem to get my butt in gear. I’m hibernating! I don’t mind so much… I have actually stopped feeling guilty about laying in bed when there is laundry to do. I had to physically stop myself from getting up, allowing myself to remain comfy and cozy without any guilt. For the first time since I became a mom, I was completely and utterly lazy. It was awesome!
I swear, coming up with a title for the blog entry is a lot harder than writing the actual blog.
So I’m getting my hair done today. I just recently had 12.5 inches of hair cut off and it was invigorating! I love my new sassy hair, but I am still working out all the kinks that come with a completely new and different hair style. You know the kinks…
When I first got my hair cut, I had a hard time blowing it dry because I couldn’t get my round brush underneath my hair in the back. I’ve finally figured that out. Then I had an issue with my hair looking like a grease slick all the time. I figured that out. Then my hair was too poofy. Figured that out. Just in time to get it cut all over again! Yahoo.
Actually, I’m looking forward to my hair cut today. I’m going to have it colored and cut, plus I totally love my hairdresser and all the gossipy gossip that goes with her… and she gives me wine during my appointment! Wine! It’s almost like going out for dinner with your friends! We sit and gossip, she does my hair, wine is consumed and I leave feeling pretty and refreshed! It’s the best!
Ok, so Michael is going hunting tomorrow (I think). I don’t know what it is with men and guns and killing stuff. I know most guys aren’t like this, because I did date and have a life before I got married. I just don’t get it. When we were at the snow this past weekend he actually showed me a picture of a revolver and said “this would be a great gun for you!” As I looked up from my knitting… I mean come on… how long has he been married to me? Why would he think I’d even want a gun? If I can’t resolve things with a sharp knitting needle to the eye, I go for the throat… Regardless, he’s going out to lie in a puddle of water and try to shoot birds. It’s such a man thing.
Anyway, I’ll be at home with the boys this weekend. I’m trying to line up a multitude of crafts so that they don’t drive me completely insane. I figure we’ll have a total relaxing, watch movies, make some stuff, and eat pizza kind of weekend. I’m picturing us in our PJammies all weekend. I bought them pjammies with feet in them… and am jealous!
I read in the Martha Stewart magazine that her mom used to make her cotton flannel pjammies that were extra long so she could wrap her feet up in them. OMG! What could be more perfect? I almost thought about making myself a blanket sleeper. You know the kind they put on little babies? I could sew on some mittens! It would be great!
It is supposed to rain all weekend with the temps maxing out in the 40’s. I need to remind Michael to stock up the dry wood in the garage, because we are having a fire all weekend long! And then I will ask him to think of us, all snug as a bug in our pjammies with feet in front of a roaring fire while he’s lying in a pool of water waiting for ducks to fly. Baa haaa
Seriously, I hope he has fun. He needs it.
My poor little buggy. He misunderstood me when I told him we were going to the snow for the weekend. He thought we were going to Canada to see his grandparents – not to some dumb snow hill containing NO grandparents! I didn’t really realize this until this morning when he told me how excited he was to show Riley his batman costume. He’d been talking about what he wanted to take to the snow all week. Cards, puzzles, costumes. I assumed he knew where we were going. My poor baby.
He cried for 20 minutes when I told him we weren’t going to Canada, that it was just a big snow hill and we were going to go sledding. He was soo sad! His heart was completely broken. At first, I wasn’t going to tell my mom, because hearing stuff like this rips her heart out. I couldn’t bare to break two hearts in one day! After exchanging a couple emails with her today I broke down and told her. Which was silly because I totally could have used that information for my evil plans. Like guilting her into coming down. Forcing her to then guilt my father into visiting as well. I think I’ll phone him on the way home and break his heart too. Maybe this wasn’t so silly… to be continued!
Let me tell you, coming up with a post when you don’t really have anything to say is painful. So I shall tell you all about my fabulous purchase!
We are going to a friend’s cabin this weekend. That cabin happens to be located in an area with snow… Californians call it “going to the snow.” So we are going to the snow this weekend. Remember all the fun you had in the snow when you were a kid (depending on where you grew up)? Well, I am determined to enjoy the snow that much this weekend!
I remember that my brother and I would get Kra-zee carpets and tie them to the back of a ski-doo. Was this how I broke his nose? I can’t remember if it was a tobaggon or a kra-zee carpet. Anyhooo… we used to have a blast! You can’t buy Kra-zee carpets down here, so I bought them torpedos!
These things are amazing! They have handles! Good handles! They have a very slippery surface on the bottom and I was assured that my boys (and possibly mommy or daddy) would be able to hurtle down the hill at breakneck speeds! Assured that we would pass land speed records! It was hinted at that we might even suffer windburn from travelling so fast! They are light too, I didn’t want to have to lug the damn tobaggen (tobaggon? tobaggan?) up the hill – because everyone knows when kids go sledding the adult gets roped into pulling the “sled” back up the hill 8 million times.
I bought new snow boots. I can’t say enough about the boots. They have a zipper up the back because I didn’t want to have to tie laces with mittens on (i was using my brain). They are ultra light too! I remember the old days (uh-oh here we go) when the boots weighed about a million pounds (no exaggeration) and didn’t do what they were supposed to do. No winter grip, no insulation, just big and clunky. I could probably tap dance in these boots.
I shouldn’t have any problem keeping warm. I am Canadian for goodness sakes! I’ve been layering on my winter fat for 8 months now! My good sense has prevailed!
Honestly, I am really looking forward to this weekend. We will be celebrating Evan’s birthday at the snow – celebrating with the pound cake we are all addicted to. Not sure what we are getting our little Buggy – but he’s not too picky. If I was a better mother I’d have made him socks or something. Bah… so over rated!!